Well, I should be able to sleep easier. It is something I have not done well for about as long as I can remember; sleep that is. Maybe what was bothering me is now less heavy on my mind.
Why am I perpetually single? Here I thought I had commitment issues. Turns out I was way off. In fact, it is much much worse; though the two are somewhat related.
What have been nagging at the back of my mind are...are you ready?
... Minivans.
Minivans have a reputation for poor maneuverability and performance in comparison with other types of vehicles. They are also the vehicle of choice for large suburban families. Minivans have been mocked for those attributes by the media. -Wikipedia
I am 24 years old. I can't drive a minivan yet! I understand that not everyone, when they have children, opts for the minivan as mode of transportation, but what if I do?
Many might tell me that I am over-reacting, but have you ever sat down and thought about it? I know some grown men with families, SUV men, roomy sedan men, when in fact they are now minivan men. Not only will I never forget the look on one family friend's face as he was legitimately excited about hearing something about a new feature in sliding side door technology, but I believe it is burned into my retinas.
Ok, so minivans aren't for everyone. Not all families need them, not all men grow up to own and drive them. I am certain that there is a particular pedigree of males who will at some point in their life become excited by the latest and greatest features available in a minivan. There is nothing wrong with that. You don't need me to tell you that, car companies wouldn't manufacture them if they weren't able to sell them.
The question becomes What if I fit the profile? What if it is in my DNA, my very genetic fibers, that I am going to drive a minivan when I have children? It must be considered a huge milestone in one man's life when he finally thinks having a minivan of his very own is a good idea. It is THAT to which I cannot commit.
"A mini-van is not the car of a warrior." - Marysia (A/K/A "some random site thanks to Google.") You hear that? Not the car of a warrior. You got that right! How can I drive a car not fit for a warrior? Ok maybe, just maybe, I am reaching a little bit with the warrior thing.
Anyway, I am glad that I was able to locate the source of my fear. I believe I have had my closure and am now able to move forward. The journey will be an arduous one, there is no doubt of that. I will take it one day at a time. The important thing is that I have the support of family and friends, right?
What's that? Neither family nor friends support me in my plight against the minivan?
Maybe I am doomed...